Saturday, September 6, 2014

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The recent passing of the comedian Robin Williams caused me to re-evaluate the direction my life was taking. I personally have been living with depression and bipolar disorder for years. There have been ups and downs, but I have tried to keep things under control with my medications. The recent path of my life has been harder than in the past. Personal events have caused me to forge forward on my own, without a partner, raising two teenagers as a single parent. After hearing of Robin’s loss due to suicide, I began to look inward, assessing how I was responding to my own depression. I found that I was withdrawing, not facing my problems, but rather hiding from them. I was only living with the negativity around me and not finding any positivity or joy in the world. That was not the kind of life I wanted to live or the kind of life I wanted to share with my children.

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I also realized that at my place of employment I was being discriminated against. Now this was not the usual kind of discrimination, but it was because I would not give the manager the fake adoration that others would give. Now I took that discrimination for a year not wanting to cause any trouble, but after my daughter began a summer student position at my job and began getting the same treatment because she was my daughter I knew things had to stop. I tried to be professional and called the manager aside, questioning the treatment. She called me very hurtful names and told me I barely did my job, among other hurtful things. I decided to take ownership of my rights and filed a complaint with our HR department. The situation was resolved, she apologized and end of story, I was finally allowed to transfer to the office nearest to my home, which I have been trying to do for two years. So because I took control of a negative situation, it turned out to benefit me in the end.


In my day to day life, I try to find someone good in each day. I have started following positive people on Instagram and Pinterest and vowed to post something positive or inspirational every day on my own Instagram to help others struggling out there. My own daughter has been struggling with her own depression and try to help keep her self-worth up and help her find her own solutions. Blogging has been missing from my life and I am going to try and find some more time to put that into my life. It’s an everyday struggle, but it’s a struggle that only a person with depression can make. No one else can do the work for them. They must do the work themselves. 

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Things We Are Up To

Einstein's High School Graduation
Getting ready to send my son off to college
Church Carnival
Adopting our new Italian Mastiff puppy, Moose
Moose growing so much in only two months
Lunch with Lil Tink
Six Flags Season Passes!
Wishing I lived in San Diego so I can go to Comic Con!
Our new tenants in the backyard

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Insta-Life - A Peek Into My Life

Another peek into my life.

1. Self Explanatory 2. Lil Tink awaiting her entrance onstage 3. Pool party with cousins 3. Fun minor league baseball game.


1. Fun visit to our neighborhood gourmet cupcake shop 2. Girls night out. 3. Lil Tink growing up 4. Reunion with high school friends.


1. Fun at the Moose Lodge 2. Moving day! 3. Welcome to the new house 4. #MamaTinkEats - Celebratory Moving Breakfast - IHOP Eggs Benedict.




Sunday, February 10, 2013

Insta-Life - A Peek Into My Life

Another peek into my life.

1. Nephew 3H's first birthday 2. My family on Christmas Day 3. Our little troublemaker Elf Fred. 4. My tree decorator Lil Tink.


1. #MamaTinkEats - Homemade Chicken Taquitos 2. #MamaTinkEats - Chicken PotPie Muffins 3. Adorable rings to add to my Costume Ring collection 4. My meds that keep my head on straight.


1. Lil Tink and her cousins on vacation in Florida 2. Lil Tinks adorable cell phone holder 3. A childhood photo of Lil Tink and her BFF at Six Flags meeting Tweety. 4. #MamaTinkEats - Homemade French Onion Soup with Onion Muffins.




Sunday, February 3, 2013

Insta-Life - A Peek Into My Life


Here is a peek into my life. Enjoy.

1. #MamatinkEats - Homemade Bacon Cheeseburger Eggrolls, they didn't last long. 2. Lil Tink wearing her Jersey Strong shirt - we will overcome the damage from Hurricane Sandy. 3. New haircut from our favorite stylist Beth. 4. A fabulous Purse wall at our favorite salon.


1. Supplies for my favorite gymnast 2. Welcome to winter 3. Boy Scouts Patrol Meeting 4. My snow bunny ready for snow removal.


1. #MamaTinkEats - Homemade Tasty Chicken Pockets 2. My delightful neice and one of her pups 3. Girls night at our local frozen yogurt shop. 4. Cheering on my neice at her basketball game.




Sunday, January 20, 2013

Lost

Found this on www.Postsecret.com

I didn't acually steal the postcard, but completely understand the feeling behind the post on Postsecret. My creativity is gone. My need to express, even on this blog, is empty.

The bipolar medication has changed my life. I have taken control. I have a great new job. A great new house. Ended a marraige that was not working. Stopped my crazy behavior. Cut off crazy friends. I have been re-introduced to myself.

But...

I can spend months without socializing. Don't need to. I have been celibate for a year since my divorce. Not one date. Not one scrapbook page. Not one homemade birthday card. No more photo a day contests.

Its a choice I make for my children. I spend time with my kids. They don't care if I am not doing any crafts. I am home with them. Which is most important.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

#FMSPhotoaday 6 - A Favorite Thing

#FMSPhotoaday 6 - A Favorite Thing
Right now one of my favorite things to look at is Jensen Ackles,
who plays Dean Winchester in Supernatural. Such nice eye candy.

#FMSPhotoaday 5 - 5 o'clock

#FMSPhotoaday 5 - 5 o'clock
At 5 o'clock I was cooking up a little Onion Chowder
 with some Onion Muffins on the side.
So yummy!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

#FMSPhotoaday 4 - TV

#FMSPhotoaday 4 - TV
My TV with my current favorite show, Supernatural.

#FMSPhotoaday 3 - Breakfast

#FMSPhotoaday 3 - Breakfast
The wonderful Eggs Benedict Breakfast that was a
celebration for the closing on my new home!